Saturday, July 30, 2005
Where Do We Go From Here?
Sorry I haven't been saying much lately. I just haven't had alot to say. :P I have also been kindof bogged down with thoughts and life.
One thing I keep asking mysel is, where do we go from here? I feel lately I'm in a rut. I don't know if its because we haven't found a place to be or what. I think it is mostly due to the fact that Blake and I aren't firmly in a community, so in a way we are isolated.
But and this a big one, I don't want to sacrifice what we have come to know for something that isn't what is best. I'm longing for community none the less. Needing some connection with the outside world besides the one in our four walls and the ones at work. This journey has been a good one. One that I wouldn't trade for the world. I have watched my husband and I become even closer in friendship and love for one another. Before we were growing apart and just hurting so much, but now we are more of a team, a stronger team.
But this still leaves me with, where do we go from here? I guess I'm ready to know. I'm getting restless and I'm feeling the tightness of this cacoon. Something tells me its time to break out of it, but what happens when I decide to come out of this one? I don't know. I guess its kindof like being a teenager again. You know its time to graduate from Highshcool, ready to leave home, but at the same time wanting to cling to all that you have known. So this is where I'm at. In a warm shell, but ready to break free, yet wanting to hold on tight. :P
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Jewels:
It's so good to hear from you again! :) And I totally hear what you are sayinng, because I am having some of the same issues. And as you said, I wouldn't trade what I've been going through, what I've been learrning, for anything - but it can be overwhelming and painful at the same time. Anyhow....my prayers are with you guys as you work through this. Hang in there!
Hey Karen!
thanks. I got your e-mail btw. I will reply. :)
thanks for the prayers. you have mine as well. being in this limbo is kindof odd, but I think its where God is as well.
hey, Jewels, you still up?
yeah, I really should be in bed, because I have to work tomorrow morning. :P YUCK! its the long weekend and I'm working it again. bummer, oh well. such is life.
"Where do we go from here?"
Hmmm...well...
Why is the path unclear,
When we know home is near?
Understand we'll go hand in hand,
But we'll walk alone in fear.
Tell me, where do we go from here?
*rolls her eyes @ husband*
Now I'm going to have that song stuck in my head all day, thanks Blake. Just for that:
Buffy:
I touch the fire and it freezes me
Spike:
I died
Buffy:
I look into and it's black
Spike:
So many years ago
Buffy:
This isn't real
Spike:
You can make me feel
Buffy:
But I just wanna feel
Anya, Dawn, Giles, Tara, Willow, & Xander:
Where do we go from here?
:)
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