Tuesday, April 20, 2004

Life As It Were

Well, life is interesting. The other day at church my husband decided to not shake hands with one of the elders that had hurt us the most. It was a bad move on his part, but I think it needed to be done. I think this elder needed to know that he had done things that were hurtful.
When we comfronted him it was hard because I think again he wanted to justify over and over, he wanted to come up with reasons why we should not feel the way we did. Once I laid out my feelings it was interesting to how he crumbled under it. I was so tired of justification, all I wanted was an apology, I wanted him to know what he had done was wrong and acknowledge it. I wanted him to see me. I think he did. If not I feel better because for once in this long process I felt in control, I felt I was heard. I feel the weight off my shoulders. I feel free. I feel that where God takes me is now God's thing not this elders or this churches. Now it will be interesting to see what God does. I cannot wait till that moment. :)