Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Head For Cover Plank In Eye Coming IN!!!

*edit* Just found this quote and it fits so well:
Its still wrong even if you don't get caught-God (on a church sign)





I posted this at the ooze, so I post it here maybe for advice from those who don't post here. I admit I'm really depressed right now and I'm looking for encouragement and honest help.


I have been in situations lately where someone has wanted to bring blood out of everyone out of them for admissions and apologies, to the extent of making people apologize over and over for even past mistakes. Although I and others have done what needed to be done, we then confronted the person as well. Telling them they must be held accountable for their actions as well. Instead we either got more speeches about our wrong doing (which had been taken care of) or complete ignoring of their part. I even told them I guess that plank in their really obstructing their view.

How do you deal with people like this? I'm finding myself getting more and more angry at their denial and complete ignoring of behavior. They have been confronted more than once, but still nothing. I find myself getting angry at God now, because it would seem he would convict his people and that his people would repent. How do you deal with people that want to judge you by thier own stick but forget they will be judged in the same manner? I'm frusterated right now and I will be honest there are times where I'm toe to toe with God and if something doesn't give...

Anyway, how do we as christians handle the plank in someone's eye when we honestly trying to handle the "speck" in our's? And every time they turn you keep getting hit by the plank? I'm honestly depressed right now and I honestly need some answers.

I don't want to say my faith hangs in the balance over this, but I feel I'm about to snap. As I shared in the last entry I'm just at a breaking point in this lesson and I can't seem to learn it and I don't understand why these people keep appearing in my life. I'm angry at them for their denial, I'm angry at their existence, and I'm angry at their pretending to have a full walk with God. And once again here I am wondering why I'm held accountable, why God puts so much conviction on me I have to do something, makes me miserable that I have to do something, and I look at the others and I feel like the child who got in trouble for breaking the cookie jar and the whole time it was my big brother who did it. I can't live this way and I don't know that I can live with God this way. I'm at the point again that God is some where weird and I can't figure out what is going on, once again God is playing by the strange set of rules I have never seen before. Anyway, maybe there is help and hope out here.

2 comments:

gerbmom said...

I often deal with this too Jewels, and I have no answers for you - I'm so sorry. But I can and I will pray for you. That's all I can do for now.
Thinking of you,
Karen

Jewels said...

thanks karen. I realize I'm having a major pity party right now. LOL :P I just want to learn what I need to learn. I'm tired of this one already! HA