The Newest False Gospel And The Lesson I Learned From It

NOTICE: Because I want to move on, but I want this to be read if there are ever any questions I have put this on my tool bar. I felt it necessary to have it in view in case of any questions, ect. Thanks for your time! :)


I'm going to address something. I know that you maybe reading this. You know who you are. If you are reading this, I want you to read each word carefully. I want you to see my eyes looking you squarley in the face and with the most serious face I have. I hope you can see that. I ask those who normally read my blog to indulge me. You see, I have a "friend" that has been lurking here. Instead of doing this privately, which would save me alot of heart ache, I have decided to pull the curtian on this "act". So, to my normal readers, you don't have to read this. Pass me by tonight or today, it won't hurt my feelings.
Ok, with that, again I know you might be reading this. I know what you might be saying to others about what has been said here and at other blogs. I know that your tongue must be trembling with gossip. I ask that if your tongue cannot be controled, just as it has in the past that you at least take the time and tell those you gossip to, to at least read this statement.

To Whom It May Concern:
My life and my husband's life has been revolving around you and your group for a good part of a year. There have been many reasons for this. I don't intend to get into any of them at this moment, but there is one reason I'm going to address right now. CALVINISM! Yes I said the word. Let me say this, Calvinism isn't a false gospel as you have tried to dress it up as. It is not a cult as you have tried to say. Calvinism is away of understanding the scripture, it is away of interupting the scripture, and away of understanding our God (His character). You are under a false assumption, one I'm sure only came from just hearing it from other's lips and not your own study of it. Calvinism isn't a cult. I'm not going to even begin to address this. Its just immature at best. I ask the next time you accuse anyone of speaking a false gospel or saying they are in a cult you do extensive research and not go by what you have been told. Honestly its tiresome. When are you going to start living your faith? When will the faith you have become your's? I ask this because no one's faith will get you into heaven. You think you know that, but after certian behaviors as of late I have to wonder.
Secondly, I forgive you. I forgive you all. I forgive you of the gossip. I forgive you of your ignorance. I forgive you of the hurt you and other's have indulged upon myself and my husband. I let you go. For so long I have tried to reign in all this stuff and control it. I have learned these past months I'm out of control. I can't control you or anyone. I have to let you go and I do so. I also thank you. I never knew what it felt like to be an unsaved person and being looked down upon by the "saved". I thank you because you have opened my eyes to a world I didn't know or understand. If this whole thing had not happened I would have never known how condescending we are as Christians. I have learned what pedistal I stand on and because of your behavior I learned to step off of mine. I realized I'm just a sheep among many sheep. I just happen to fully believe in the Shepherd and trust Him, but I realized because I may look like a goat or a stray sheep doesn't mean I don't know the Shepherd any less. If it weren't for you I would have never learned the deepness of that lesson. Thank you! Praise God for you! I have been wanting to know what your part in my life was and I think I now know at least a glimpse of what it was. Thank you!
So to end, may God bless you and keep you. I pray that you grow in richness of our Father! I pray that you learn from this as much as I have learned from this. I can honestly say I don't think I would be as free as I feel right now if it weren't for the damage and hurt you have caused. Praise God. Thank you for playing your part in God's plan for me. (oh, yes, you proved Calvinism to me as well)

God bless-
Jewels

You know, this might not mean anything to anyone else, but it is a step for me. Its a huge step for me. For once I don't have the mask on. I'm not hiding. I have hid for so long. For once I don't feel guilt for something that happened. I'm not looking at myself or Blake and thinking, "oh, man, why did we do that. how can we fix it." For once I know deep in my heart its not mine to fix. Its God's to fix and other's to fix as well. Its not my responsiblity. For so long I thought it was. I have been beating myself up and I realized tonight, its not mine, its the Lord's and His hands will do the rest. Praise God.

Ok, Lord, now what! ;)