James Orah Art
Last night I came clean to some of "those people". Although I didn't do it in such a way they felt I was attacking I told them how hurt I was by actions that had been done. I didn't ask for an apology, but it felt good to come clean in some sense. They now are in the "know" and at least cannot pretend there isn't or wasn't a problem. Its something small, but its no longer in the dark as it once was.
For me in some small was it was a release. In some ways it was one chain of this anger and bitterness coming off of me. I could have at that moment taken advantage of the moment and I admit I have thought of doing so. Instead I let a small part of my hurt and "my truth" be shown to them. To them it seemed a minor role they played and maybe in the end it was, but even the minors in this "play" need to be addressed, at least for my freedom. So I take the first real step towards some kindof healing in this "Wonderland". I feel like I'm the man in the painting. I have my white flag up and some how, maybe not running, but finding my way out of the dark.
Blessings!
No comments:
Post a Comment