The Truth

I do some really stupid things sometimes. My anger or my embarrassment takes over and I find myself embarrassed. :P Right now I'm really upset with something I did to a friend. I just got embarrassed about something I did and reacted in away that got them more involved. I feel really bad. I want to go back and chage it, but it was a mistake. ugh........ I want to tell them I'm sorry but I don't even know how to reveal the truth of what I did.

I'm really thinking through this stuff I'm going to speaking on. Its about "unity". In our church right now, I just don't know if that is possible. There is so much hurt going on and not enough truth. Will me sharing at a Ladies Retreat really be helpful? I don't know. I even wonder if it really safe. I mean some of the things I have to share are from my heart and some of it is ugly. I shared last night that I feel like I'm like that book,"Messy Spirtuality". That is me, my spirtuality is messy as it can get. I hurt people, I have ugly feelings, and I'm just plain weird. Its the truth, in all its ugliness. O-kay so I have been depressing lately. :P Sorry for that. Honestly, I'm doing better than what I give myself credit for. Anyway, blessings to all and have a good Sunday tomorrow.