An Added Note

I wanted to commit on something. I haven't really focused on this much, but to rant and to get on my soap box. So, here it goes, for awhile I thought the whole "Emergent" thing kindof fit me. So I was singing the praises of it, but as time has gone on I have seen things that make me wiggle. I'm finding just right now in my life things that start getting commercialism and people start getting rah rah ree about it, I step back and soon I find myself, well disillusioned again. I just want "the church" (us the people) to quit playing around. Someone once said that they were about reforming and being a reformer. Well, I guess that is where I'm at if that is the label I would so dare to label myself. I want to see the church start being people church, instead of the church building. I don't know if that makes sense to people. I'm not about a philosophy, I'm not about breaking down postmodernism, or modernism, I'm about looking at our community and realizing we are in a mess. Even worse a fantasy land. We have diluted ourselves to think that if we just put on a new coat of white paint that will change our situation, or put on a new jazzy coat of paint, with some new funky lights, for this change will make things better, some of us think, and the process goes on and on. I think its time for us to get some of that stuff that strips the paint away,get some sanders, some reality and confess to God that we have missed the point. We decided to play, play with each and with Him. We locked ourselves up in our ghetto and thought if we stay there and be a shiny then we will change the world. The whole time, the only thing we have become is what we hate about the world. What is really scary is that there are people who think because they have joined this whole "Emerging"/PoMo thing, that this has changed. I hate to say it people, you've only moved to a new neighborhood in the ghetto.

I don't want to become a "complainer" of all this. I want to be a reformer, but how? How do you get this large community to see what we have become. How do I even get the small one I'm apart of to see it? I know in my head I could spout all this junk to you and I can promise you it would or might move you, but would it make a difference? I don't know. I just want to find myself in a community for once that was about being a community of Christ. Not a fly swatter for Christ, or a glossy mag cover for Christ, I want to be apart of a messy spiritual community that just wants to engage each other and the community around them. Not thinking we are better but thinking we can just help and walk along in the journey. Is that so wrong?

I think I have rambled enough for one night. Blessings to all, my faceless group of people, the people who may or may not be reading! HA Night to all.