I'm frustrated today. I can't seem to get away from all that seems to crowd my world. I need to go to my playground but for some reason I can't. People keep abusing my openess. They think it is o-kay to use you for their gain. They act surprised when you call them on it. I had that happen recently. I have laid out my cards to people and they are acting surprised. As thougth it is o-kay to manipulate and use people at their free will. I want to take a stand but I feel weak. I want to hit but something keeps pulling my hand back. I took one punch and it didn't even phase anyone. I want to run to my playground, I want to play. I don't want to stay here any more. If I can just get on my swing. OH God let me just go to my swing. Right now I will stay here in the real world. Not wanting to deal. Wanting to run to Jewel's Land. I will fight for now. I will run later. I think if I can just squeeze my toes into the ground I can make it one more day. Just one more time around.........