Another Must Have!!!

I have ordered this CD. I really suggest y'all to look into him. He has a blues type sound. Very nice. Check into him. :)

Teen For God

I have this really great friend who has been helping me broaden my musical horizons. Anyway, she has turned me onto an artist Dar Williams. I really like her alot. She is a folk singer and I'm all about her. Anyway, the first cut on her album is called Teen For God . Anyway, I though I would post the lyrics here, because I think they are words to consider.





The sun burns down living God's bright stamp
At Peace Branch Horse and Bible Camp,
Where we're splashing in the water, joined in song,
Swimming with the spirit the whole day long

I'm a teen for God, and God is watching
I'm a teen for God, and God is watching
I'm a teen for God.

The girls have looks and the girls have rules.
They came here from their Bible Schools.
They can make you pay attention
to the way you dress and eat,
Make you trip over your over your own two feet.
They kneel down on thier towels at night,
Their nightgowns glow with a holy light,
And we pray for the sinners and their drunken car wrecks,
And I vow that I'll never get high and have sex,

I'm a teen for God, and God is watching
I'm a teen for God, and God is watching
I'm a teen for God.

Cause God made every leaf on every tree,
Each grain of sand, God has a plan
for what we're meant to be,
I've got wait for God.

Dear Lord I plan each day
the things I will not do or say,
But I'm driven by a passion is it only there to tame?
It fills my heart and it calls my name, and
This world that you made for us,
I know I know its dangerous,
So I ride a lot of horses, I never ever swear,
It's sort of like praying I'm just not there.

Oh God, God is watching
Oh God, God is watching

But God made love, God made the river run,
And cowboy boots and bathing suits
and the boy's skin dries in the sun.
Help me God.

Help me know four years from now,
I won't believe in you anyhow,
And I'll mope around a campus and I'll feel betrayed,
All those guilty summers I stayed, but
Then I'll laugh I fell for the lure
Oh the pain of desire to feel so pure,
And I'll bear all the burndens of my little daily crimes,
And wish I had a God for such cynical times
Far from today.

But for now I'm your sacred vessel, Rip me open,
I'll spread your world like a milkweed pod,
Yeah I'm your radio station,holy transmission,
Even more like a lightening rod,
A lightening rod, a teen for God.

I'm a teen for God, and God is watching
I'm a teen for God, and God is watching
I'm a teen for God.

How WEIRD Are You?

You Are 30% Weird

Not enough to scare other people... But sometimes you scare yourself.

How Weird Are You?

Mockingbird

I'm so excited, found out that Derek Webb is coming out with a new cd on Dec. 26! Yippee!!! If you want to hear some tracks just click here.

Because Of You

Just wanted to put this up here for me. LOL Wanted to be able to read the lyrics. :P

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurtBecause of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of youI'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cryIn the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of youI am afraid
Because of you
Because of you

Pic For A Special Fairy

Here my sweet fairy enjoy the pic. ;)

For everyone else, this is a pic of me. Its from the ShokWalking Tour last year and Blake kicked our butt at poker. :) I decided to summon the spirit of Phil "Unabomber" Laak. Y'all figure out who is who. ;)

Tired

I'm tired. I'm tired of fakeness of faith. I'm tired of the fakeness of Christian living. I'm just tired.I don't see God in any of the shit Christians and their institutions try to blow at us. And the thing is, I used to be that. So I'm even tired of myself. I'm tired of the crap I have given people and looking at being embarrassed.I'm tired of battling and fighting. I'm tired of not having a place. I'm tired of ranting. I'm tired of whatever life this is I'm living.I'm tired of pretending we have the answers. I'm tired of knowing I don't have the answers. I'm just tired.I am not the same person I was last last year and I'm tired of it. I'm tired of being depressed. I'm tired of others having power of me. I'm tired of running from the past and I'm tired of running from my future. I'm tired of hearing people spill out a bunch of crap about how God is great does stuff in their lives as if He is some supernatural giver and the God of the easy life. I'm tired of the God I have had to live with lately. He keeps taking me to places I can't handle any more. I'm tired of being the person in the corner scoffing Christianity and throwing the stones at the institutions. I'm tired of realizing I can't go back to that life.I'm just tired. what does that say about my faith? nothing, but I'm tired. I'm ready to find some people with some kindof substance to their faith instead of some crazy protection layer to their faith.