A Place To Fit In

I wonder sometimes if I will find a place to fit in. If I should even try. Right now Blake is wanting us to continue to visit a gathering that I'm just not sure about. Although I think it has potential, I think the other side of that potential is dangerous. Conservative brethren seem so stuffy, making sure every "i" is dotted and every "t" is crossed. Taking the microscope out and making sure that the Truth is black and white. This scares me. I mostly live in the grey I guess you could say. I'm messy, although my "i" will be dotted it might be off center and if my "t" is crossed it might not be perfectly crossed. I don't even own a microscope for my bible or for God, I don't think I ever had one, doing that to the bible and to God just seems, well, BORING, plain. I want to not only know God, but I want to experience Him. It seems like the more I try to be in a relationship the more I grow, the more I understand, the closer I feel. So with that I feel like I'm the square peg trying to fit in a round hole. Although its nice to be different, it just doesn't help you fit in.

OH, Another One, What The Heck......

Which Horrible Affliction are you?
A Rum and Monkey disease.

Blake,I think this one is for you. :D

And these things are addictive. HA

And While We Are On Characters.......

Which Annoying B-list Celebrity Are You?
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey.

I Hate My New Foundation

MAC you screwed me. I have tried and tried to live with this new foundation and it sucks! I look like a pale and spotty ghost!!!!! ARGH!!! Yes I am angry right now. Last Sunday I went to my MAC counter needing a new foundation. I almost wish I would have never changed formulas. *cry* I will have to head to the MAC counter again tomorrow. This sucks.

Which Character Are You?

I love the movie The Village. It says a lot to me. One of my favorite parts is when Ivy, the heroine of the movie, decides to take a chance, go into the forbidden woods, to reach the towns on the other side to fetch medicines for her slain lover. Ivy is blind and can only see colors. So Ivy takes her leap of faith, only driven by the hope that the "ones we don't speak of" are not real. Her father, who is an Elder of the village, has two guides go with her. They meet her and go to the gate where they will enter the woods. Ivy walks through the gate and one of the guides follows. He soon catches up to her only to tell her the other guide is staying behind. She turns to him and pleads for him to go with them. She tells they will be safe. He turns his back, Ivy and the other guide continue on to the towns. Until it rains and they have to stop and take cover. When it clears the other guide leaves her as well, telling her that the "ones we don't speak of" will have mercy on her, because she is blind, but they will kill him. When I have the time I will find that part from the movie and put it on here, because I think the words are profound as well.
I wonder what character are you? I would like to think I'm Ivy. I feel as though I am any more. Although I'm not physically blind, I feel in so many other ways I am. I'm now on this journey trying to get to the next town, I'm blind as to how to get there and it feels so lonely sometimes. All I want is to get to the towns, get the medicine I need heal myself and take it to others. I just don't know if its possible. I keep feeling like I'm going to be stuck in the woods forever, just wondering around, running from the things I don't talk about, and never making it to the end. I guess this is what the whole PoMo thing has been for me and working on all these thoughts on the Emerging Church. So I wonder, where are you? Why do you think you are whatever character you choose?

Blessings for now-

Marketing To Reaching A Culture

Sunday night I was watching CNN Headline News. I watched a report about a man by the name of Kurtis Blow. Mr. Blow apparently is the "Father of Rap". He became a believe and now lives in Harlem, New York City. He saw a need for a church to reach the community in Harlem. He decided to start a Hip-Hop church. Apparently it is doing rather well. Since Blake has a friend that is reaching these same type of people I thought I would post about it on his web page, http://www.shawncuthill.com. Someone on the message board didn't like the idea of this Hip-Hop church. She called it marketing and modern. Now, I'm all for bashing the PDC and for questions the marketing that has come from it, but I wonder if this church is reaching a culture and not marketing to it.

So this leads me to a thought, what is the difference? What is the difference between marketing to a culture or reaching people through the culture. Could it not be suggested its all the same thing? Things that make you go hhhhhhmmmmmm..........

One More Try

Well, I thought I would start working on my blog again. See what I can come up with to write about. It seemed for so long I was just becoming depressed and a whiner. Ok, so my dad called me "Julie Whiner", fine, but I will work on not being so. :P ;)

What is going on now? Good question.

1. Blake and I no longer go to GBC. Crazy, I know. Things just got too out of control. I couldn't take the judging, the fakness, the lies any more. Plus, Blake and I were starting to go into different directions. This was miserable.
2. We actually went to a church yesterday together. That was interesting. They are very conservative. I'm not good at getting along with conseravtives. :P I know, I know. Its just too hard sometimes. I'm just not into law, being perfect, and so many other things that seem to go along with being a fundementalist conservative.
3. Blake and I are going to see my family at the end of March. I'm so excited! This will be our first trip together since we got married. Very exciting!

Ok, so nothing else real exciting is going on. I'm going to leave at this for now.

Blessings!!!