Life As It Were

Well, life is interesting. The other day at church my husband decided to not shake hands with one of the elders that had hurt us the most. It was a bad move on his part, but I think it needed to be done. I think this elder needed to know that he had done things that were hurtful.
When we comfronted him it was hard because I think again he wanted to justify over and over, he wanted to come up with reasons why we should not feel the way we did. Once I laid out my feelings it was interesting to how he crumbled under it. I was so tired of justification, all I wanted was an apology, I wanted him to know what he had done was wrong and acknowledge it. I wanted him to see me. I think he did. If not I feel better because for once in this long process I felt in control, I felt I was heard. I feel the weight off my shoulders. I feel free. I feel that where God takes me is now God's thing not this elders or this churches. Now it will be interesting to see what God does. I cannot wait till that moment. :)

When Life Hands You Something You Weren't Expecting

So, I found out my "spiritual mentor" commited adultery. I have had a really hard time getting through it. Its been so hard. Sometimes I feel normal. Right now I do. Then BAM it hits me, that HE, my friend, my leader, the man who had a very important role in my wedding, turned on his wedding vows. This to me just blows my mind. Now I understand that, sin is sin, I commit sin (this sounds weird) everyday. I stumble and fall everyday. I guess this is one of the BIGGES, one that you never think your freind, your spiritual mentor would do. Understand this is compounded by the fact that his wife is my mentor. She is the sweetest person I know. Her spirit is wonderful. I can't imagine why he would do this to her. Their marriage had been through so many up and downs! I just keep praying for them. Hoping one day I will hear from them. I will be able to encourage them both. So right now I'm looking at the ugliness of sin and so thankful I have a Savior who saves us from it all.

A Neat Lil' Diddy

Pull the shutters and tighten the blindfold
Turn away anyone who doesn't fit the mold
The story goes untold
Despite the righteous beliefs that you profess
You still can't cover the stain that marks your Sunday dress
No need to confess


I like this quote! I found it from a kid a work with. Its from a group he likes and right now their name isn't coming to me. I will try to remember to put it to the person's credit when I remember. :)

Blessings!

Jewels

The Passion Of Christ

O-kay, so I'm sinking to everyone else's level and mentioning this thing on my blog. I'm going tomorrow. I don't know how I feel about it. I just want to go and be left alone with it. I don't want to mull it with people. I just want to be there. That is what I did with Bruce Almighty. It was nice to just see it on my own and not have people wanting to talk to me about it. So, tomorrow night I will post something I'm sure. Not sure what I will be saying. Should be interesting! Blessings to you.

So You Aren't There

O-kay so no one is out there reading this. Well, at least I no know that I can look like an idoit and not worry! HA Oh, well, it was worth a try!

Never Mind

A rush of depression has waved over me.
I wonder sometimes why God made me this way?
Why am I so unprotectable?
Why am I always the one on the fringe,waiting?
Why do I always feel the world is turning for others and I'm standing still have to make my own world spin?
I'm the one who never really has freinds but people who just like me.
I'm the one that can get a crowd to support something but when I need the support can never get it.
I wonder why?
Why am I so, whatever I am..............................

Clouded Thinking

So today nothing is really going on. I'm just hanging out here at work. Thinking and realizing I haven't been working on my "sermon" this week. I think I have let my mind become clouded. I hate it when I do that. Pray for me! :)

Blessings!
Jewels